women really think too much sometimes, i believe. over think, worry, obsess.
i never thought i was an excessive worrier but now i highly doubt that.
needless to say, my worries were in vain. i stressed myself over nothing.
what a wasted night of pain and tears. everything is okay.
but just a lesson to be learnt. if you don't let go of your fears, or overcome them, then it terrorizes you when you least expect it. how do i overcome this? How do i let it go? a journey upcoming.
meantime i am here at terminal 3 waiting for the plane to sydney. yes i know i keep going there and people keep thinking i am now living there. which hopefully will come true next year if nothing goes wrong (see, the worrier in me is creeping up).
i am really looking forward to it and i should think i will proceed no matter what happens.
my new eyesight has given me a new outlook somehow, on life. although i still keep forgetting that; at times i think i am wearing my contacts and in a second, i remember, and laugh at myself.
sometimes we have to forget the old to move on with the new. it's a challenging thing for me, letting go of work here in singapore and so many, numerous opportunities that have come my way since i have decided to leave. but i know that if i just shed these contacts, and accept my new eyes and life, things will turn out for the better. yes, though the grass may not be greener on the other side, but at least i am given a new outlook.
and who knows where this might lead me? who knows.